A line commonly used before during or after a break regardless of how good or bad it is, is ‘I just want you to be happy’.

NO!

No I don’t…you break my heart, I will wish a lot of things upon you..happiness not being one of them. I feel like people just say that to convince the other person that even through hard times they still care which proves that they’re meant to be. Wrong. After a break up, no one wants to see their ex hanging out having great times with others…forgetting you, meeting new people, laughing smiling, kissing. Doing things that make them HAPPY. You want to see them grieving (to an extent) missing the good times with you. 

Every new friend they get every check in every time they don’t reply you wonder if they’ve moved on if they’re with someone else if they’re happier without you. Which is why you either become very clingy annoying and obsessed questioning their every move sending them numerous messages calling them excessively asking them who what where why and how or you mutually decide to try and be ‘friends’ that way it’s acceptable to be up in once bidness. 

Either way you don’t wish utter and complete happiness upon them unless you are the one ending it and you just cannot be bothered dealing with their constant crying and moaning because you feel bad it is annoying and because it also means you’re a shit person if you move on within the time that it takes them to get over it. 

Stop lying, mother fuckers!

Today is a day filled with contentment gratitude and big thoughts for the future. I know what I want I know when I want it and I know who I want it with. It is all a matter of mkaing it happen. I have who the what the when and the how. I have everything that I need to put these plans into action and I couldn’t be more grateful. Happiness sometimes comes with sacrifice and it is something I am willing to do to create the future I want and have pictured. This very point in my life right now I can honestly say I am the luckiest person alive to have everything I have been given everything I have created and you. People rely on materialsitc things and live the narrow minded life depending on the things they can buy to make them happy. It will only last so long before they realise that money can’t buy you happiness it leads you into a false sense of security and provides you with a momentary lapse of what is real. Good luck.

Months today and I couldn’t be happier.

If you had asked me this time 3 years ago if Perin and I would get back together I would laugh in your face. You really do never know what is going to happen. Life can take you to places you could never see yourself going. It is the uncontrollable force.

Who knew, right? 

Kills brain cells and potentially lives. If you rely on an illicit substance to create a high then you’re life must be hitting an all time low. Do something with your life, find something that makes you happy, find something that can produce a natural high. Nothing positive can come from killing excessive amounts of brain cells for one night you don’t remember. You’re an idiot.